Five Ring Circus

So, I waited all weekend for my blood to settle to talk a bit about Chicago losing the bid for the 2016 Olympics.

But, it didn't.

Even thinking about many of the contributing factors that led to Chicago finishing 4th (f***ing FOURTH?!) in the IOC voting just makes my blood boil and my head get so full of angry thoughts that it just isn't worth my personal health to get all riled up about it.

Much like last October, when a similar sense of loss pierced my soul, I am in an unfortunate situation. Though living out here in La-La it is a bit easier to just "move on" with life, as Daley suggested we all do in his postmortem on the bid, what is worse is a hollowness, an emptiness, because nobody out here CARES.

When my team loses its chance for postseason glory for the 10oth year, or my city suffers an astounding defeat in front of the whole world, then DAMNIT, I WANT to be mired in sadness for the next few days, surrounded by omnipresent reminders of the failure. It is through this process that true healing can emerge.

Instead, I'm forced to be in LA, where nobody cares about anything, and listen to idiots blather on about "its great for Rio" or "Let's go Dodgers!". Morons.

Being out here is almost worse, because it makes the pain and frustration seem unjustified, when I know if I was in the CHI there would hundreds of fellow mourners to connect with at local watering holes.

So when looking at the possibility of what could have gone better or who is to blame, instead of wrangling with the different demons of "not enough support locally" or a "failure to navigate international IOC politics" I pretty much just chose to forget the past and move on, not because it is the best thing to do, but because it is the only thing to do.

I made no secret of my passion for this particular endeavor for our fair city, and am still incredibly frustrated with the final results, but there's not a whole lot to be done about it now. Wish I could conjure up some more frothy ranting, built its just not there. Instead, just like after Game 3 last year, its just empty.

Shit.